Everyday day, every week, everything is so overwhelming. But I’m doing well, just taking it one day at a time is all I can do.
More tests are coming up this week and I’m really trying my best to read and do the study guides early. Every minute I get I am doing hw, but how long can I do hw for? I need a break! School is my number one priority, but I also try to make time for friends and my family too. I literally try to do the most I can during the weekday, so during the weekend I can relax and have a little fun. It’s hard! Everyday I’m up early and do everything I can until I know I’m done with what I have to do for the day, then I’ll crash. I will go until my body dies at the end of the night.
Jordan and I have been doing great! I think I said this before, but I am so in awe with him. He just impresses me everyday! He’s always wanting to see me everyday, he’ll call me on his work breaks, and sometimes he’ll just call to tell me something silly. He’s always asking about my day or how I’m doing. Sometimes I ask myself, what did I do to deserve him? I know that I deserve him and the best! I’m not use to people doing things for me, I feel like he does more for me than I do for him and it’s usually me doing things for everyone else. I am so thankful for him, all the little things he does I’m not use to, but I like it. Sometimes I don’t even know how to react. What I can do is just take it. We are doing a couples costume for Halloween, he’s going to be Ash from Pokemon and going to be his Pikichu! If he wasn’t here, I’d be basic cat woman. But I’m doing this costume theme for him because he really wants to be Ash….what a nerd right? I never thought in a million years that I will dress up like this lol, it’s not me at all! But I’m doing it for him. We went shopping together to look for our costumes and went to go eat the other day, and it was so nice because I haven’t been out like that with anyone, (well besides my sister) we had good conversations and it’s what couples are suppose do! I learn so much from him everyday. Maybe I’ve mention this in my other blog, but he’s musically talented. He played the piano for 16 years, he knows how to make music and draw too. How cool is that?! Like wow, you are so smart, and you know so much, I’m just amazed! I had learned the other day that last year he was homeless for 2 months. He was living off his car and never asked for help. He did what he can and look at where he is now, still trying to live. We all go through tough times in our life, but never give up. He’s so happy all the time and positive, and always making me laugh. He really is an amazing person. This morning we had talked about something random and he basically said that I am his life. There were many thoughts going through my head at that moment. I just know that I see him in the future ahead and I’m sure he see’s the same. We have been dating for a month now and how can one month with someone be so awesome, this has never happened before. This is what a relationship is suppose to be. I don’t care to ask him to define the relationship right now, but eventually he will make it official or I’ll ask. For now, things are going really good.